but everythingmeans nothing.

Saturday, May 31, 2003
jUz finishEd watching rEplAcemEnts.. dAmn.. he is still so cUte.. hehe...kk enough of this nonsense! wE||.. I went to see a doctor yesterday cOZ I've been having headaches for the past whole week.. iT sucKs alright. dOc saiD I am too heaty~ sO muZ drink more water.. later on, I went to schOol for sTage aRts meeting..eh.. nothing much. tHen I went to meet yAzUka.. haha.. hE said hiS muM and dAd want him to cut his hair.. and he said he is going to cut like kEanU rEeves.. haha.. coz I like him! gUess he is abit jealous about my cRaze over him~ I went home early today.. cOz today is my mUm's birthday.. my auntie bought an iCe-cReam cake.. tOmorrow watching maTrix reloaded with my siS and then going for a bbq.. still wondering whether to meet my poLy friends in seNtosa on mOnday.. cOz is like I have to rush there and the next day I will have to be out again.. dAmn bUsy.. I think only after the nExt tUes, then I will have the time to do my own sTuff, like swimming! yEa~ sO quiet tonight.. dOn't know what should I do.. mY roOm tV cOntroller is nowhere to be found.. sianz.. I think I will have to find it later. or esle I will bored to death!
bEnjAmIn is taking hell a long time to reply mails.. dunNoe y.. mayBe he has lotsa places to go.. but it is fine with me.. hahaha! hErEby, I wish everyonE to bE hapPy!
kRïStå saYs.....
if i ain't got you|11:15 PM|

Friday, May 30, 2003
wE||.. came back form my Final theOrY tesT.. well I REALLY do hope to pass... hehe.. this morning, I watched mAtRix.. iT is aWesOme... now I know why my sIster iS so cRazy about it! hahah.. well.. of so many moVies I've ever crAzy about it this maTrix and hArRy poTter.. yEap.. hmmm.. jUz e-mAiled bEnji.. asking him about the flight details.. hope he can reply fast! aLso, my class chalet has moved to 1 and 2 jUne.. so.. I wOn't be able to make it coz of a bBq and havong driving lessOns.. so sorry guYs! bUt might be meeting them on 2 jUne in sEntosa after driving leSsOn ! mY cRaze about keAnU ReEves is getting stronger... anYone can stOp me! *hE|p* gOd damn it.. he is really my dream guY.. that kinda hair style.. that kinda fAce.. that kinda eyes.. wOH.. I hope this craze will die off soon... otherwise I might wasTe $.. haha.. wE||.. but plS dun insult him in front of me if you want to... coZ I will really bE damN sad.. hahahha.. alright gItta eat my dinNer now! cYa!
if i ain't got you|7:48 PM|

Thursday, May 29, 2003
kEaNu ReevEs iS gOrgEouS! yEah.. wOh.. he is so cool in mAtriX! lOve his sUit.. loVe his sunglAsSes and lovE hiS paSsioN for the gIrl.. woH... hE is 39 thiS year.. bUt he lOoked yoUnger than that I suppose.. hehehe... wE||.. can't stop dreaming of him after I watched matRiX rE|oaded.. although the movie suCks.. but I think it is still wortH watching.. cOz of hIm.. hehe.. I think I am really nuTz.. yEsterday.. I searched through hIs fAn sites.. and I didn't know that I've watched some of hiS shows.. like ReplAcemEnt.. I was thinking who is this handsOme huNk.. and also.. I wanted to watch sWeEt noVemBer(wHich I didn't) becoZ of the mAle lEad .. but I didn't know he waS kEanU Reeves! woh.. but I still like the way he dressEd in mAtriX.. cOol!
LaSt 2 dAys.. I had giDdy sPells and having splitiNg headaChes.. dunNoe y.. it is not as if I am having stress over herE. iT nEver hAppened before.. even it did.. it wun last for more than 1 dAy. tHis is the 3rD day already.. I wonDer if it is gotTa do with my loW bLooD presSure. yEsteRday, I went to iCe-skate.. hehe..and I fell dowN.. total wet on my lEfT side of the boDy.. but it didn't hurt that muCh thouGh. moSt iMpoRtanTly.. it has to be fUn! goIng cHalet tomoRrOw... meeting my pOly gAng in the niGht.. 9pm! yEah.. to sEntoSa.. so I won't be blogging the nExt fEw dayS. aFter tonIght.. I will have 2 dAys break for not having my dRiving lEsSons.. yEah.. tOmorRow my final tHeory tEst.. wish me lUck! lAter going there to do revision.. hehe.. hM.. let me think si there anything elSe.. oH yah.. it has been a very long time I mentioned yazUka.. well.. both of uS are alright.. yEap.. alright.. his eXams are gonnA to be over soon.. so I hope we will have more time to be together instead of oNly oNce or tWice a weEk.. tHis holiday for me is full of activites although I didn't ffind work.. I will always find myself doing something everydaY~ mAybe when I am free.. I will watch the firsT part of mAtriX which I've misSed and also.. sweEt noVembEr.. maybE even watcHed Replacements again! I really have to finD activities for mYself.. or else.. when sChOo| reopens.. I will have to get back to booKs!
kRïStå l♥vEs kEaNu ReeVes!!!
if i ain't got you|12:28 PM|

Monday, May 26, 2003
wE||.. browsed through the claSsiFied today.. very tempted to look for a job outside.. but then come to think about it.. hAiz~ hArd.. will only waste my transport fee. hMm.. tOday.. I dUn feel so well.. I think my health is getTing worsT.. dUnNoe whY.. maybe too heaty.. hope I will fee| better later.. I am so sIanz.. waiting for time to pass, nothing to do.. actUallY wanted to go SsDc to do some revision questions.. but then.. come to think about it. I think I will do... later? or tomorrow biaH~ hope to pass the first time loRhz.. sianZ.. my tEst on fRiday.. but only left with two dAyz.. tomorrow and tHursday.. friday maybE still can make it in the morning.. dIe liaO larhz.. I tot I still got lotsA time.. nevErmiNd.. wish me lUck..
if i ain't got you|12:00 PM|

Saturday, May 24, 2003
lUckY for me... tOday's driving insTructOr is gOod.. and cOo|.. coO| in the sense.. caLM. mOndAy takIng him again.. hE is Mr cHua.. and my origInal inStructoR is Mr tEo. wE||.. I saw mR tEo today.. before I started my leSson.. hehe.. aCtuA||y haD a bAd mOod today... bUt afTer seeIng him.. I felt so much better.. dun get the wrong ideA.. is more like he hAs disrUptEd my tOts.. I finA||y know he resembLes who lIao.. an aCtor.. but dUn know hiS name.. mY brother tolD me that he is fortY plUs.. near to 50.. I coUldn't believe it.. he seems so yoUng.. woH~ unTi| now I still couldn't accept the fact that he is 40+.. hAi~
DUn know Y my mOod is so shiTty.. feeling very uncomfortable and sad... about my sChOol results.. watEvEa the resu|ts are.. hai~ I have a feeling that it is no goOd.. gOd b|ess mE.. bEN hadn't reply my email.. maybe he is still busy helping his aunt to move houSe... bIg hOuse.. bIggEr than mine.. he saiD... hE can take his tIme.. haha... hMm.. tomorrow finally have a break.. no dRiving leSson.. and maybe it is a time to wAke up lAte too.. I really do hope I am sleepy now.. so that I can juZ slEep.. SLEEP.. I won't think so much.. eWwEwWw!
if i ain't got you|10:40 PM|

laTe and sLeEpy niTe.. sO warM and hUmid tOday... couldn't stand it.. hAiz.. hMmM.. today I know abit more about my dRiVing iNstRuctor.. for the second lesson in the afternoon, we talk more than what I learn.. haha.. pErsOnal sTuFfz. aCtuA||y need to go out the maiN rOad.. but we didn't eventually.. jUz dRove in the circuit.. turNinG rounD and rOund to tOk... I find that he is haVing a harD time in his life.. accorDing to some things he told me.. I felt qUite sAd.. duNnO y.. hE treAted me a driNk todaE... hEz.. aiyah jUz a watermelon juIce.. but I really didn't expect it.. cOz he juZ want me to have something for lunCh. tOmorRow I will be having another dRving InsTrUctor coz he noT freE tomorrow on course.. until moNday. sO hAving 3 leSsonZ withOut him.. haiZ.. duNne waD will hApPen tomOrRow.
liNdY, fRedEriCk, jOviN and yAn roNg came to my house today. wE juZ watched tV and talkEd.. some surf nEt and check mAil.. soOn.. Yan Rong and jOvin go hOme first.. lEft linDy and fRed.. so they stayed back and finished up the pUzZ|e for me.. and yEs.. it is done~ mY sIster helped a bit too! k lAhz.. gtg now.. cYa!
if i ain't got you|12:20 AM|

Thursday, May 22, 2003
hE||o.. well.. day was somehow hell for me... mY dRiVing lesSon.. sUcks.. gEtTing bEtTeR.. but I think it is not good enough.. mY dRivIng instructor is really VERY patient with me.. and he tot that he raiSed his voice at me.. aNd at the end of the leSsOn.. he juZ said hope I duN miNd.. which I didn't actually... rEally.. I didn't even think that he rAised his voice.. I felT bad.. not becoZ he rAised his voice.. bUt I think I've disapPointing him.. mY legZ jUz couldn'T coordinAte.. pLs wish me luCk K ppL.. I really jUz want to pAsS for once.. cOz it does affecTs my drivIng insTructor's repUtatiOn too yA know.. hE is good and I can't afford to dIsapPoint hIm..
I weNt out with my c|assmates toDae.. hehe.. not bAd lahz.. see them play pool.. I tried abit too.. but another tAb|e.. using two balls.. haha.. then come home and have dinner loRhz.. juz like that. bEnjAmiN e-mailed me today.. and I didn't think that he will e-mail me so fAst.. anyway.. I've replied him.. nOthIng muCh todaY loHz.. I only know that tomorrow hAVing 200 miNuTes driving lEsSon tomoRRow... muZ be tiRed eh.. nIghTz!
if i ain't got you|10:54 PM|

Wednesday, May 21, 2003
jUz woke up from my nAp and ate my dinnEr.. yuMz.. bBq stinG rAy & fRied oysTer.. hahah...oiLy rite? nAh.. heck care liao.. aFter the driving lesson today.. I went to do the rEvIsIon for the fiNal ThEory.. haha.. first time 33 miStakes! sEcond tIme 19 miStakes then lastly drop to 4 misTakes.. then I went to book for my FinAl theOrY tEst.. the earliest is 30 mAy.. wanted to book earlier slots.. but sadlY speaking.. this is the earliest... yEah... today during my rEviSion.. I saw aik mEng.. (sEconDarY sCh sEnior) he wAs shocked to see me.. and I was too.. then we went to take revision together and then walked back to yIo chU kaNg MrT together.. hahah couldn't believe that we will still tOk! We did exchanged phone numberS too. tOday, when I wenT home.. I called some tuiTion aGencies.. hope I can get a jOb by tutoring kiDs.. loWer pRimarY loRhz.. hey.. you all have loBang.. tell mE K? yOuR little sis, bRo, cOusin, nephew or niece.. anyonE that you kNow form prImarY 1-3, kiNdergaRden also can! vErY loW rAtes.. hehhee..
I tOo sianz... until I want to juZ call the agency and wait for assiGnments... aT least for that kinda job.. I think even during schOol days i sTi|| can continue.. bUt not sO muCh lahZ.. nOw liStening to sonGs... hMm... mOoD is betTer.. oH yah.. there is something I have to tell you.. yA know mY driVing insTructor.. hE told me that he cannot make it on thiS saT coz he haS a coUrse to take.. hE very gOod.. tell me in advance and then told me to choOse which instructor oN that dAy.. cOz he wanted to gIve me goOd onEs.. and he says some driving instructors cannot be trusted... bUt saD saD saD*!!!! the instructors he told me to take all all taken up... bOo HoO~ -__-' then tomorrow have to tell him lor.. hehe.. I find that my dRiVing instructor has some chArm.. hehe.. not bad looking one lor.. I can see that he has a lot of patience for me.. so I muZ improve faster.. if not do beTter.. I heard that tomorrow I will be driving the maiN road liao.. hoPe I will not have any aCciDents! hEhe^ lOve ya lOts!
if i ain't got you|7:14 PM|

wE||... didn't blog yesterday cOZ I was tired.. now it is *early* in the morning becOz I have to go for my second driving lesson laTer.. we|| yesterday was my first lessOn and it was fun! hAha.. finally I know how to drive a manual cAr.. not so good lAhz.. but at least for a start.. It seems like I am playing a racing car gAme. hEhe.. funNy lahz.. yesterday I stalled my car quite a few times.. I think I have problems with the clutch.. I have to practise.. HumpH~ I know some of you might think it easy.. bUt I guess I have a phobia in driving caRs.. dunnoe why.. wE||.. gotta get over it soon.. aFter that I went for a job interview in GV (PS)... oH the pAy is soooo pathetic.. it is only $3.60 per hour.. but as for caThy cinema.. it is $4.50 per hour.. hai~ I tot GV will offer more.. hAha.. juZ a smAll secret to let out.. hehe.. so you know whihc kinda cinema you have to look if you wanna look for a job there...
yAn rOnG, ce|eSte, jOvIn and I went to KTV in chinatwon.. celebrate lindY's birthday.. it was actually suppose to be on the 27th.. but then after that we are not free and it is not nice to celebrate belated.. so we gave her a surprise! hehe.. she was so paiseh.. yeaH~ wE sang for 5 hours in the KTV.. not a minute to be missed...we found out that the time is not enough.. hAi~ nVm.. next time go again.. Heheheh wE||.. I happened to see sIm Lim there too..
tHe waiters there are cutE~ but I really like one of them.. the oNe who ushered me and jOvIn to the room.. he is so dAmN coOl k.. looked like lOuiS kOo.. hope you know who.. "gU tIan lE".. know who? hehehe.. yEah.. tanned skin.. tall.. side burn.. coO| face.. not a smile.. woH! side view really look like him.. but I think at that time he was going to let off work.. so didn't get to see him after that..
Our rooM was on the second level.. and then there will be a group of waiters standing around.. so sickEning.. they always look into our room.. then when we are going to the toilet.. they keep staring at us.. like as if we are going to steal the things there! wE||... very uncomfortable.. but very funNy... in the end... we made a mesS in the KTV room and lefT.. HohOho.. okie.. gotTa go and prepare my driVing lessOn liao.. wisH me luck.. hope I am not scolded by the inStrucutor.... he is a nicE guy.. but hEard that my bRother that he is strict... yeah...
kRïStå wAnNa s|eep.. cOz she woke up at 7.30 am!
if i ain't got you|9:51 AM|

Monday, May 19, 2003
bIg nEws! bIg nEws! mY cLasS has another couple.. pEi tInG & sEet wEi.... cannot believe ah.. dunnoe why.. bUt wIsh thEm a|| the best! hMm... went to meet benJamIn today and we aTe kFc bUdDy mEal.. after that we went to look for cE|este. wE cHose a toP and bOtTom for lindY's birthdAy pResEnt.. hehe.. tomorrow celebrating~ wOnder how |indY will reacT.. today so tired.. after visiting cElEste, bEn & I went to diScoVery cAfe and ate ice cream.. tOk and tOk.. then go to mAriNa bAy.. tok & tok again.. tAlk alot.... bY the tIme we gO home.. we were all very tired.. slept on the train.. (tHat's waS the oNly tIme we stopped tAlking..) gUess I will give up finding a job... tomorrow will be my last attempt coz I was asked to go for an inTerview.. GV.. yeAh.. dunnoE lahZ.. see hOw.. tIred liao... niGht*
if i ain't got you|10:30 PM|

yOz.. took this quiZ... tRy it out! aNyway.. I miZ yAzUka... dunnOe wHy.. alot for these few days... hAha... I guess I am only going to meet him during the weekends.. ThaT's when he is gonNa bE fRee! hMm... well.. starting my driving lessons on tUeSday.. eXciTed but nErvOus... scaRed I can't even start the car! hOhOhO~ ^o^ tOday is the only day I've stayed at home since after my eXams.. bUt I find that staying at home is so sIanz... tried watching tV.. but nothing good to watch.. then I took a very long nap.. and this explains Y I am still here... heheheh. aNyWay... tOmorroW meeting bEnjAmin.. he is going off to aUsTrAlia on wEd, so tomorrow meet him one last time loRhz.. hahah... but ask him to buy things for me.. Hehehe! nOwaDys.. I dunnoe why I don't like to tok on the pHone.. last niGht.. someone called me.. but I didn't want to pick up.. Usually bEnjAmin & I tok alot of cRap on the phOne.. but today very short only.. gUeSs I am too sIanz to socialize... hAi~ dUnnoe lahz.. these few days have been going out.. thne at home juZ wanna rest and bE aloNe... hEhe..
if i ain't got you|1:38 AM|

Thursday, May 15, 2003
yOz~ hahaha... back form the dead.. yIpee... today went to cut hair with Benjamin... hahah.. he looked damn funny.. but not bad lahz... very different lorhz.. I am sure all my classmates will be shocked! AnywAy.. after that.. he and mEliSsa came to my house and do my unfIniShed puzzle first.. but do after a while all of us gIve up.. bEnjamIn cannot do.. then purposely say the pUzZle so uGly... haha.. tHen we plAyed caRds later.. very fun, but I always lose,but it is okie, it waS fUn~ hMmm.. tomorrow looking for jobs again loRz... hAve to Work lahz.. or esle no monEy.. mOther duN givE pOcket $ during holidays one lorhz.. but normaly ppl spend more during holidays right? hAi~ duNnoe lahz... this month somemore so many bIrthDays.. siao liao lahZ... mAybe I am not going to iCe sKakE liao... hai~ bO $.. hahaha... anyway k lahz... gotta go.. sEe yA!
* iF cAn Ah... give me money for reading my b|og.. hahaha....
$$$$$ kRïStå bO lUi $$$$$
if i ain't got you|11:28 PM|

Tuesday, May 13, 2003
iT hAs bEeN a lOng bUt fUn dAy yEsterdAy~ Yes.. I've finished my exams yEsTeRday! coNgRates mE! fIna||y fRee! yesterday after school, I went to meet Yan rOng and we went to search for jobs. Not much of hope but maybe still tryting on Thursday or Friday. sO sIanz eh.. After walking so muCh with yAn Rong I was so daMn tired but still I have to go and celebrate sEan's biRthday. hEy dOn't bE miStaken! I am not obliged to go.. I really want to go! sEan is so called my "sOn" in the class k... hahahha.. anyway.. Sean pAid for our dinner (wOnder how mUch he spEnt). We ate steamboat at mArIna bAy... nIce~ Thanks sEan! Thanks for the wonderful dinner. Oh yah.. then Wei |ong bought a bLack forest cake... it was nice.. The best thing is that we had a cake fight.. a|| of us kAna~ hAhaha... I had cake all over my face... all thanks to... dErRick, wEe bEng and sEan! hahaha... cOz I made dErRick first.. seeing his face so c|ean. fUn nIght we have. =)
HmM... I think it is gonna to be a long day today. I am going for my driving theory lessons later and then going to shop a small present for yAzUka. TomoRRow his bIrthday but celebrating his birtHday today, tOgether with his pArents. TomorrOw he celebrate with his fRiends.. Hehehe... I might not even have the chance to be alone with him... I guess.. hAi~ I am planning to give hIm a letter today... telling him that I am giving this relationship one last chance... I really hope he does treasure and take it seriously.. Wish me lUck K?
^ kRïStå'S eXaMs R fIniShEd ^
if i ain't got you|10:23 AM|

Sunday, May 11, 2003
iT'z bEtTa tO bE siNG|e.. yeAh.. I think so too... hAi~ "|oVe iS cOmpLicaTed" and iT iS tRue... wHy Am I tOkIng suCh cRap? tOmorroW is my lAst paper.. wiSh me lUck k? hMmnn...don't know what to do tomorrow leh... gO oUt? oR stAy aT hoMe to s|eep? cElebRate sEan's bIrthDay or go and lOoK for jOb? sIanz.. I have decided not to gO for the nAtIonal Skills coMpetition and I am going to tell mDm tAy on tHe 13.. hOpe I can jUz wIthdrAw...
oH yAh.. hApPy moTher's DaY!!! hMm.. nothing to write liao loR.. jUz to wish sHaNnen and bEnjAmIn best oF lUck!
if i ain't got you|7:24 PM|

Saturday, May 10, 2003
hE||o pEoPle... eXaMs nOt oVer yEt lAhz... sIanz Lor... I really have a problem now... sEriouS... the problem is....
Whenever I go out with yAzUka.. I find that I can communicate with him very well and we are really on very good terms.. hE treats me very well too.. bUt when I talked to him over the phone.. it is a different case.. hE cAn gEt uPset very easily and throw his temper ... sO wAd does this mean? cAn we still cLick? I still have feelings for him of cOz.. and I am somehow looking forward spending time with him during the holidays... but now I am still in doubt.. should I still continue with him? I am really confused.. I told him about this problem.. I told him that we can communicate better when we are face to face.. and he agrees with me too... sIanz... can anyone give me sound advice.. I really need it!
~TrOubLed kRïStå~
if i ain't got you|11:44 AM|

Wednesday, May 07, 2003
THE STUPIDEST MISTAKE I MADE:
DIDN'T ATTEMPT AN EXAM QUESTION WHICH I KNOW HOW TO DO!
if i ain't got you|6:28 PM|

Monday, May 05, 2003
yOz yOz... kAoz.. something wrong with my computer... have to re-type again.. Hows mY pAper todAe? iT sUx! yEah~ didn't really matter to me.. even though I know I had mistakes in the paper.. but I am not the least worried.. cOZ i know I've done my bEst. I am lOoKing forward to my holidays.. my miNd is oCcUpiEd by thinking waD to dO during the cOmIng hOlidays.. yEah! You know after I completed my first paper todAy.. I couldn't wait to get out of the room.. I didn't even wanT to cHeck mY paper.. I think I am jUz too sIck of eXams...hahaha
sHaNneN is going to jApan (1 week) and bEnjAmIn is going to aUsTraLia (1 mth + 1 week).. gOnNa miZ them (*pSsT.. remmeber to buy something back for me!) hAhaha.. bEfore that.. I am going to bRinG bEnjAmin to dO a hAiRcut.. my birthDay gIft for hIm! dUnNoe how it will look like.. hope that it tUrns out well.. (oTherWise he is gonnA kill Me!) dUrIng the hOliDays.. I am gOnna do some catching up with my "5 cRazY arSehOle sIstErs"... hAhaha.. wE||.. hand very pain now duNo Y.. so I'll stop typing now.. wAit for mY gOoD nEws.. wHen eXams aRe oVer!
if i ain't got you|10:43 PM|

I AM TAKING MY FIRST EXAM PAPER TODAY!!!!! WISH ME LUCK!!!
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE TOO!
if i ain't got you|8:53 AM|
